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Hrm [Aug. 31st, 2001|02:08 am]
Brad Fitzpatrick
Went to dinner with Raja and Evan tonight. Good talk.... discussion ranged from 2616 to 37. Evan came back afterwards and we tried to work. We never get anything done, though. Annoyed (see following paragraphs), I just watched a movie instead.

Kinda in an odd mood lately. Lots of stuff isn't how I want it to be, but I'm not even sure what I want half the time. Explaining further would involve going into details and trying to figure it all out myself, and I can't.

I suppose one thing I can talk about easily is work... working at home sucks. Wake up, move 5 feet, work alone all day, move 5 feet, go to bed. Repeat. When I do have people over to work it turns into an unproductive social gathering. I need to rent some office space. But only 3 people in the Seattle area would ever "come into work". I'm so much more productive when I'm working with other people, challenging them and them challenging me. Working in my bedroom is lame. And working on IRC is like working in my bedroom... too much chat, too little work... not to mention too much typing.

6 months of school. Blah. Then what? Then where? But really this concerns me very little. It's only added to show there is more than one thing bothering me... I just can't discuss everything else? I don't know... maybe I could, but I'd have to get the wording right, and I suck at that.

I need to stop seeing the bad in everything and enjoy something. It's hard when you're surrounded in crap all the time, though. I start guitar lessons next Monday... that'll be fun. I wish I had more people to share my crap with. Small doses of crap are manageable and sometimes even fun, if interleaved with fun stuff. Doing nothing but crap is depressing.

Even writing all this, I still feel no sense of closure ... I was hoping I'd figure something out.
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[User Picture]From: ironman1231
2001-08-31 02:30 am (UTC)
I think it's ok to be unsettled about what you want to do with yourself. You have to realize that no one really knows what they're doing - we all just make plans and change those plans and fulfill some of our dreams and fail at others.

I think what you need to decide is this - do you want to keep running LiveJournal? Do you want to turn it into a business with enployees and an office? Regardless of the thousands of people who would clamor for you to do that - is it what YOU want?

realize this - you're a bright, funny, very talented guy with his whole life ahead of him. You've already created a couple of succesful websites, and you're still only a college student. You can make Lievjournal better, or you could do something else entirely. The only boundary for yourself is what you are willing to do.

I love livejournal - I want it to succeed and make you rich and for the whole world to use it. Maybe that's your dream too. If it is, then get busy with it - open an office. Drive to work and do your programming there, hire some other people to colloborate with. This can work - if you want it to.

I beleive in you Brad. Whatever you decide to do, I'm behind you. So are your friends and family. Don't be afraid of anything. Let it fear you.

Or ph34r u! or whatever. ;)
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[User Picture]From: tsutton
2001-08-31 04:40 am (UTC)
I echo what this user said.
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[User Picture]From: christowang
2001-08-31 05:34 am (UTC)
Uh, yes... I would totally love to work in that situation, it would be great...

But neverless, the challenge becomes what everyone else can't do, I end up doing. Even my boss I've loss convindence in. I was in his office for 30 minutes yesterday teaching him HTML. I mean come on... this is such a waste of time.

I would give my left arm to work in an office with competant people. Settle isn't looking to bad anymore.
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[User Picture]From: 00goddess
2001-08-31 05:56 am (UTC)
I always thought working at home would rock, until I actually did it. I felt unmotivated to do anything in the house except work. And it was depressing as hell.

I hope your life soon conforms to your ideal.

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[User Picture]From: detritus
2001-08-31 08:02 am (UTC)
I'm the other way when I try and work at home. The "home" part overides any ideas of work.
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[User Picture]From: flashfire
2001-08-31 06:39 am (UTC)

Goals?

Brad, this may sound corny but have you ever thought of sitting down and coming up with a list of goals, no matter how silly any of them may sound? My cousin talked me into jotting down 50 goals, whether it be going back and getting a degree, making X amount of money, traveling to Australia, even something small like getting in better shape.

I didn't think I'd get anywhere close to 50 but I made it. Then, he told me to group them by whether I wanted to meet these goals within 1 year, 3 years, 5 years, or 10 years, then decide which of the 1-year goals were most important to me, followed by grouping them based on how soon within that next year I want to accomplish them. I've still got to finish that, but it's actually a really good way to help me focus on some things. You might try it for anything you want, be it Livejournal or otherwise.
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[User Picture]From: nder
2001-08-31 10:00 am (UTC)
Working from home, combined with a virtual office is the penultimate way to start doubting yourself- I've done it. It's a royal pain in the ass doing the virtual gig, what with ppl in different time zones,a dn their own lives making punctuality not perfect,etc... while working from home, you're the only one that drives you- there's no boss pressure, no outside influence(aside from bills), it's all you, and that's bad for most of us- alot of ppl are driven, but it's hard to maintain the drive when you're the one holding the reins, and pulling the cart.
You've done some great things in the past, and that's likely to continue if you don't let yourself get jaded on it all, or burnt out.
Instead of renting out office space, is there another room in the house you can use, maybe have others come over to work there? The change of room helps ALOT- I got dick done in my room, but when I moved computer to a far better window room, in the middle of house hustle and bustle, I got more done. Make the days you work with others together be a combo of social and work- make the first hour some snack and talking, then after that, just work. you get both the social and the work aspects, and you also get some new air by movig thru the house- hell- you've got a laptop- go to other ppls places every few days- work from there, not the house at all.
good luck man- you've done wonders.:)
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[User Picture]From: dormando
2001-08-31 10:20 am (UTC)
Fuck this town.
I'll work with you.

... and LiveJournal's still a startup. Even if only 3-4 people show up for "work" - in a year things might be different.

Landfish taught me that it does need some discipline to have productive work sessions. We had meetings every two weeks. Some goof-off time, get dinner time, then meeting time. It often took a good ten to twenty minutes of forcing ourselves to get to business. Once we did though, we got a lot done.
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[User Picture]From: nder
2001-08-31 02:44 pm (UTC)
come, join us, we will feeed yooou oh mighty one.
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[User Picture]From: nick
2001-08-31 11:28 am (UTC)

I think I've read this post a million times

Brad bitches cause he lives in a cave and everyone rushes to comfort him... typical...

You know what your problem is, you need to shit or get off the pot!

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[User Picture]From: brad
2001-08-31 12:04 pm (UTC)

Re: I think I've read this post a million times

So helpful you always are. :)
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[User Picture]From: mrwiz
2001-08-31 12:20 pm (UTC)

Re: I think I've read this post a million times

heh heh heh, tough love bitch.... tough love. at least he didnt tell you to bend over =P
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[User Picture]From: whitaker
2001-08-31 12:43 pm (UTC)

Re: I think I've read this post a million times

Dude, I've never heard a pirate speak like that.

You fake!
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[User Picture]From: mrwiz
2001-08-31 12:59 pm (UTC)

H A R !

YA BLOODY YELLA-BELLIED LANDLUBBIN GIT!!!! WHO ASKED YER SORRY ARSE-GOBBLIN' PASTY BILGE FILLED MOUTH TO OPEN UP AND SPEAK? METHINKS YE NEED A GOOD KEELHAUL'N TO REMIND YA WHO'S IN CHARGE!

I'LL SHOW YOU HOW US PIRATES MAKE EM BEND OVER!!!!

H A R ! THEY DONT CALL ME DADDY LONGLEGS FOR NUFFIN!!!!
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[User Picture]From: whitaker
2001-08-31 01:25 pm (UTC)

Re: H A R !

HAHAHAHAHA!
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[User Picture]From: chuck
2001-08-31 11:57 am (UTC)
even if you had an office you wouldn't be happy. You'd complain about it being too far away, or too near..too big or too small. it's always something, life's a pain in the ass.
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[User Picture]From: brad
2001-08-31 12:04 pm (UTC)
Um, no.

I used to drive 45 minutes to and from work every day.... didn't mind at all. Radio's entertaining.

Too small? Couldn't be smaller than my bedroom and that's all I need... as long as another few people could get in there and work.

It's just hard to work without somebody beside me to talk to... kinda like studying with somebody over IM as opposed to studying together (to use an analogy you'd likely agree with)

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[User Picture]From: whitaker
2001-08-31 12:21 pm (UTC)

w0rd

Dude, the whole working at home thing is so freakin' true. Last time I was in Philadelphia I loved the 3 days or so that I actually got to get up, ride the train to the office, pick up some coffee along the way, and get to work... without stupid distractions (boredom, distance, impossible to communicate, etc).

I guess MY closet dream is to come out there and work for you for like $5/hr just because it would be fun as hell and I'd learn like a mofo... I'd do it too, if I could live off it. Well, maybe $7/hr, heh. Anyway, the point is that it isn't even an option at this juncture because of so many obligations (school, etc, etc).

What am I rambling about? I dunno, I can relate to what you're writing. Stupid shit all the time... boring workplace... social interaction=getting no work done. At least you have a window in your room. Fucking basement is horrible.
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[User Picture]From: brad
2001-08-31 12:34 pm (UTC)

Re: w0rd

When you get to your internship time, you totally have to intern for LJ... that'd rule.
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[User Picture]From: whitaker
2001-08-31 12:45 pm (UTC)

Re: w0rd

I have 3 quarters of school coming up... then a FREE summer.

After summer I will either start Co-op or Classes.

Hmmmmm... sounds like this summer could be it.
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[User Picture]From: niko
2001-08-31 02:57 pm (UTC)
3 jobs ago I worked for Catalina Marketing as a field service rep and ended up working mostly out of home. I got very little done, the temptations to watch TV or whatever while I was doing my inventory or going over e-mail was too great. I was supposed to be arriving at my first stop between 8-9 am, but I wasn't leaving the house until at least 12!

An office is what I'd suggest.. do you guys have a garage? What about that spare bedroom?
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