|I want to go fast
||[Dec. 5th, 2001|10:12 pm]
I want to go fast.|
I want to work on one thing and keep going and going and not thinking about anything else.
I used to program on one thing for weeks at a time, stopping only to sleep (rarely), eat, and get more Dr. Pepper.
Now I work on 500 things and get nothing done anywhere. My grades are terrible this quarter. No, seriously. I'm getting 50% on everything.
I've previously compared my problem to context switching in an operating system. Destroying my cache, etc, etc.
I now have a better analogy.
I stop, change direction, go, stop, go, turn around, stop go. Try doing this in your car. Total mileage covered in a few minutes will be a lot less than me doing 90 down I-5.
So what's the destroyed cache in this analogy? Energy lost to friction. I want a flywheel to spin up and capture that energy so I can reuse it as I constantly break.
But no... it's lost to heat and worn brake pads. Read: Stress.
But whatever. When this ride is over, I'm back to cruising. Well... literally, actually. December 21st I'm going on a cruise in the Caribbean mit meinen Familie. But after that.... it's focus time.
I ... Need ... To ... Focus.
Admittedly my motivation's been low lately, but I blame that on lack of momentum. (Momentum :: Motivation) Recall p = m*v. I have much m (much fun stuff to do). Low v (oscillating between 0 and 10 mph).
I want to go 90 mph.
ooh, caribbean... are you going to dominican republic? you can say hi to mi familia. :)
2001-12-05 10:33 pm (UTC)
I don't even know what islands we're hitting.
2001-12-05 10:35 pm (UTC)
Heh. That was interesting to read. I really like your scientific analogies and explanations. =]
So, Brad, ya gunna sell your MP3 player to pay for the ticket??
2001-12-05 10:55 pm (UTC)
That was August 1997 (see the bottom right of the image)
Heh, oops! I have never seen a American Speeding ticket.
Hows the MP3 working out for you?
2001-12-05 11:10 pm (UTC)
I love it. :)
2001-12-05 10:56 pm (UTC)
.. and I got it reduced to $38. :-)
You know, I really think that posting that ticket, which lists your license number, your height, weight, address, license number and SIGNATURE is a *really bad idea*.
Yes, I'm playing Mom, and I know you probably don't like it...but...I *really* think you should take that down...
2001-12-05 11:08 pm (UTC)
That's been up for years.
But I fixed it ... I smudged out the important stuff.
2001-12-05 11:33 pm (UTC)
Ah...silly me...seeing it in the /temp directory and I thought you posted it when you came back from Thanksgiving. :)
That'll teach me to pay attention, hm? *wink*
Maybe I should sleep now...it's 1:35 in my woods...
strange that you post this just when i went all emo teen queen in my journal about similar principles. not that i used physics in my analogy.
but yeah. being fractured really plays hell on all kinds of shit, especially when you can't fall back on things you take for granted: grades, projects, relationships... yadda yadda. instead, you constantly compare yourself to memories, and that just sucks ass.
:)i think you go fast enough. but with all those stops, starts, and circles --you just don't travel very far. so, here's hoping that you, armed with bumping music and clear thoughts, find that straight stretch of road.
Humans don't multitask effectively
Yes, you definitely need a chance to concentrate on whatever is important to you - and that includes making sure you graduate.
That's a problem that I have found lately too... in so many cases, it feels like I am the only one who can be expected to do __________ , which inevitably leads to fielding a flurry of distractions. As a result, a lot of the individual projects I would like to concentrate on just don't get done, because I don't have enough cycles left over.
To some extent, LiveJournal itself is part of the problem, in that it leads to an evergrowing series of distractions keeping me, ironically, from doing things that would make a difference for the site.
We should talk about this sometime on the phone, perhaps... since you hate email/chat/etc. Maybe we need to take a good look at things and see just how much we can delegate. Yes, we can do some things better than other people, but that doesn't mean that we should. I suspect we need to delegate until it hurts, yet develop scalable systems (such as support, abuse, etc.) and make sure good procedures are in place.
The upside is that we have so many people involved in LiveJournal, and as they continue to learn about the site, they are becoming more trustworthy and capable. It's a very comforting thought at times, actually...
I have never seen an American speeding ticket. I find it amazing again and again that they always write down the "race", too. I somehow felt like putting this in quotes.
I know you didn't post your ticket to talk about that, but like a coouple of others, I haven't seen an American speeding ticket before.
What "infraction" did you commit?
I see it says "Negligent driving. 2nd degree".
What does that mean? Failure to yield or something?
And another thing. Could we see the back of the ticket? I like to read the small print on forms :o)