February 21st, 2001

Trippy, tired, Tired


Finished the movie. Got grumpy ..... not sure why. Sick of dealing with crap.

I just read Evan's latest entry. There's two sentences I'd like to steal and use for myself.... if I could write well and express myself clearly instead of just saying "blah" all the time, I'd say something like this:

School worries me. Actually, what worries me more is my inability to invest time in anything that doesn't completely interest me

That's so applicable for me. I'm doing poorly at school this quarter because I just don't care... it's boring, and I can't get myself to spend any time at it. The thing is, though, nothing really interests me lately.

I'm going to bed.


Morning in review.

I had some crazy dreams last night.
Woke up tired.
Debated skipping geography, but decided to go.
I should have skipped geography.... he spent 40 minutes going over the different between absolute grading (90%-100% = A) and relative grading (the "curve"). I swear that asshole repeats himself over and over. I wanted to raise my hand and point out that half the class was just talking, asleep, and bored, but I didn't.

Instead, I left class, took a walk, bought some coffee and a cookie, and went back to class, thinking he'd be done and moved on to real material. Nope... he kept going. We got a few minutes of real material cover.

Stupid large freshman classes.... why'd I take it? I like small little hard classes.... they're actually interesting, too. And you're not treated like a dumbass.

To contrast this, I went to physics and the midterm distribution was up on the overhead with the mean, standard deviation (which we didn't even get to in 40 minutes in Geography), and the professor didn't even talk about it... he just started right up with lecture material. Sooo much nicer. Except some people were talking behind me. I wanted to stab them with my mechanical pencil. Anybody that talks during class deserves to be stabbed and bleed to death. Seriously. If you want to talk, don't go to class.

At the end of physics he was talking about electron waves and quantum theory.... fucking creepy stuff. Most areas of study are boring until you get into the really advanced stuff, I've found. But I guess that isn't too surprising.

After class Evan and I went down to Speakeasy and started a 2-hour memory check program running on one of the servers... we went and ate at Momma's (a mexican restaurant) while we wait. After eating, an hour into the tests, there were still no errors..... sad. However, just as we were leaving, a bunch of errors were found! Hooray! We know the hardware is faulty now, and it wasn't my fault.

Came back, read mail, and now Kenji and I are going to go spin for awhile.

damn me.

I need to get/learn Debian.

I'm working on Chuck's new server remotely, and running helix-update (so I can fetch Red Carpet for him) over remote X is painful. I was thinking, "They need a console-based red-carpet...." but then I realized, I need apt.

Show me the money!

After ahze's suggestion earlier, I've decided to make my "Give me money" page..... check it out. Just think --- if I could get 50,000 to give me a dollar or two, that's like .... a lot of burgers.

If you're feeling like you have too much money, feel free to go give it to me. Hehehe.

evening events/plans

Went to Blythe's for dinner... damn good food. She's a wonderful cook. Kenji and Amy joined us. (the 4 of us have dinner every Wednesday night while watching Temptation Island)

Eli and my mom didn't like my "Give me money" page, so I updated the wording so it didn't sound so.... arrogant? guilt-inducing? pathetic? lazy? I should've reviewed it more before putting it up. The main point of it is to be funny, but some people don't see that.... understandable, I suppose.

Scott and I are going to QFC now to get Dr. Pepper ..... I've been out for days. Going crazy. Then we're stopping by Chuck's to work on his computer.... he better be home by then.

Then.... stay up all night working on crap? I don't have to wake up tomorrow until past noon.