February 19th, 2002



what an awesome dantes night.
soooo many people there.
and we got like a billion free pitchers of beer
what was up with that? i don't get it.
i wrote postcards to a bunch of people
including john, blythe's london bf
i'm not sure he liked my postcard
it was pretty much illegible
drunk + cursive = not good
i wrote blythe a postcard en français.
but i don't even speak french.
sarah showed up too!
and devon from film club.
i'm not in film club either.
went to red robin beforehand.
have a cajon cluck for breakfast in a box.
oh my oh my.
haven't done shit for homework today.

In der Zukunft

My obligatory LJ post of my German writing assignment:
In der Zukunft gegen 2010 werde ich wohl in einem Pappkarton leben werden, dessen Wände kalt und durchnässt sind, weil ich kein Arbeit will. Obwohl ich sehr gut Computers weiss, neulich bin ich sie überdrüssig geworden. Vielleicht werde ich einen Beratungsdienst starten, weil ich Rat über Informatik gut geben kann. Dann kann ich in einem großes Haus leben, das ein Schwimmbad und eine Tanzfläche haben wird. Ich werde natürlich viele Geld verdienen, mit dem ich Autos und Spielzeuge kaufen können werde. Jeden Tag werde ich Relativsätze schreiben, die das Verb bei dem Ende des Satzes haben werden. Das wird wohl mir Spass gemacht haben werden und dann kann ich auf immer mich entspannen. 2010? Ernsthaft habe ich keine Ahnung, über was ich tun werde. Ich werde in 3 Woche graduieren und dann muss ich eine Ahnung für 2002 finden.
Feel free to tear it to shreds, those of you who know German. I love to be corrected.

Putting it all in perspective

I was telling Kenji earlier,

One's todo list is never empty. You may think you have but five things to do, but those are only the give that are immediately of importance. As soon as they're done, suddenly a different five are now the most important, so they seem relatively important, compared to the infinite list of things everybody must do.

Everybody's todo list is infinite because there are an infinite number of dependencies to succeed in happiness (or "wellness", I suppose). I should graphviz my own as an example, but I'm tired and plan to sleep here in a second.

Think of happiness/wellness as the end goal node. As prereqs for that, I have "stay alive", "love", "travel", "learn", "toys", and "improve the state of things". travel and toys both require money. money requires education, as does learn (although I'm often not learning what I want to learn in this "education"). education requires classes.

And classes require taking a 5 point quiz tomorrow over some vocabulary I'm too apathetic right now to care about.

A thousand years ago, the depedency tree before "stay alive" was a lot more involved. Nowadays it's pretty hard not to die, and we spend all our time on relatively unimportant shit, in the grand scheme of things.

I wish I could work on eliminating subgoals within my todo dependency graph that had less depth from the root goal than I'm working on lately. That is, I wish I could work on things that directly affect "improving the state of things" (aka. "change the world") instead of all this school stuff.

But in 3.5 weeks I'll be done with school, and then I have no clue what I'm doing. I wish the Goethe Institut would contact me back already. I need to figure out where I'm going to live and such.

So really, the next 3.5 weeks are pretty important: I have to write those two LJ independent study papers to graduate. I know that's important... graduating. But then I have no solid plans after that, so it's hard to work towards a goal when I can't see the goals that lie beyond.

Anyway, now I sleep. I'll study tomorrow, perhaps.